beginnings

Sometimes I have a feeling that there are many "new beginnings" in my life. Strange and so... logical in the same time... when something comes to an end, something new begin...
I simply trust, but it makes me also curious - quo vadis?
With a smile and faith in my heart I try to accept what comes, having in the same time this belief that I am responsible for my life, because of my attitude, my actions, my plans, my dreams. However, there is this unpredictable touch of something that is wiser that I am, and all I can do in that time is to learn and discover, what is in it for me...

Little UPDATE

1. February - Jaanika's and Ruta's visit. After long long time awaited reunion with my girlfriends from my beloved Finland... It was so much fun to have them here, we were laughing so much :D I already forgot what does it mean to talk whole night with friends about everything and nothing, about very serious matters and those stupid talks that does not make much sense for anyone else but you :)

2. And here is Filip, Little Angel :) Isn't he cute? :)


3. Spring in here :) Which means a couple of things - I have Mr.B and I take him for rides whenever I have time :) It is a bit painful, especially the day after, but I would never give up those moments together :P And it is nicely warm/hot and everything is green... it just reminds me that I love this season, it gives so much hope that everything will be better, and everything will just work out, it is just a matter of time. Maybe I couldn't see the reason of some things, maybe there is not apparent reason except that "sometimes what is good must come to an end so that the better can come"... I am full of hope and faith. I am full of spring inside my heart, after tough and cold winter... there are still some issues I need to solve, as there is always a time to change. Meet wonderful people on my way that send me messages of hope whenever I need that without even knowing that sometimes, and that is what I appreciate. There are things to think over, time to care about myself and about others, some things need to find inner peace... Spring in life means to see what is not going to be reborn, and what will look completely different as is already changed with time... It means new beginning...

The wind of change...

Norway... Surprisingly it was moment of change, the new beginning. Some kind of energy was in those mountains with snow, in this sea... Difficult to notice, quietly, something came and then created an avalange over last week. Was so emotional, that I still try to catch my breath, calm a bit, see where I am now... New job in a place I was dreaming about, new hope, new chance. Awaited for such a long time. And even more awaited Filip, small Angel that is here with us already. Closing the chapter that was not easy to close, with that so ironical job offer, like a cruel joke showing how perfect it could be in timing and how things solve themselves out, are prepared waiting for us to reach the moment to appear if we have trust and believe and not block ourselves by useless worrying. But also for that is a reason. - that came to me with frozen things and freezing words. New hair, new me, and new hope for new opportunity. New visit on a way, and... maybe that was enough, or maybe some more are coming. I believe that there are those moments of break-through, when there is inner energy inside us to change, those changes find us. Today a bit sad day, as Teddy Bear is leaving us. Will miss those mornings, talks, jokes, dances... will miss someone presence next to me, but the wind of change is blowing and you cannot stop it. Not only for me time to grow, time to move, time to catch new breath...

Far Far Away...

Aftera bit gloomy period in my life I decided to add some colours to it and go up to Norway to visit a friend of mine and see Northern Lights... There is nothing better for heart then a great talk and beautiful views...
Thursday morning I pack my bagpack and head to airport - just two planes away from my weekend destination, Tromsoe :) waiting at the airport, always surroounded by Poles (jeez, we are absolutely everywhere!) and finally, a couple of hour later, there I am, in the Northest North I have even been :) Of course active Kasia immediately wants to go somewhere to see, see, see :) Have to admit, Norway IS amazing. Fall in love in those mountains and sea... Some things were just...different - like the lack of curtains or the fact that noone turns off the lights... but I like the houses, the views... although my wish for Northern Lights did not come true (ok ok, slightly little bit).
My weekend? Sighseeing, talking with friend, taking pictures, trying to make the best use from those two hours of "day"-light" (did I mention there wasn't sun breaking the horizont when I was there?), going out and meeting great people... I like that Norwegian sense of humour :)
After night (well, sounds strange saying that about a place where night lasts 22 hours) out, few hours of sleep - time to get back to reality... Planes planes... with some snowstorm in Oslo, manage to fly back after all (happy? well...)... Meeting friend in Warsaw and first summary of the trip...
Who knows, maybe those beautiful views were to start something new... never know ;)

anything...

Will you raise me up? will you help me down?
Will you get me right out of this godforsaken town?
Will you make it all a little less cold?

Will you hold me sacred? Will you hold me tight?
Can you colourise my life, I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?

Will you make me some magic with your own two hands?
Will you build and emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?

Will you cater to every fantasy I got?
Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot?
Will you take me places I've never known?

After a while you'll forget everything
It was a brief interlude and a midsummer night's fling
And you'll see that it's time to move on

Mazury 2008 - thousand lakes and us

This year my holidays are divided into pieces, but it actually seems to be pretty okey - week in Tampere, training, week at work, week at the lakes and then... and then later :) Now want to tell you about my sailing trip :)
After family dinners and visits we finally left for sailing. Through the country of sun, roads rennovations, fields of gold and deep forests, squizzed a bit, we finally reached Mazury. As we were after whole day of sailing, we decided to eat something - Christian, with "small hunger" decided to try the duck and... as the portion was huge, we were all wondering how much Christian eats when he is really hungry ;)
The time to conquer the world of wind and water. I have to admit that I love sailing and lazy holidays like this... With the sound of the wind and water, nature, colours, you have time to escape from everyday life... I could just take a book and enjoy my time there, without thinking, worrying... Just laughing, being lazy, smiling... all the best one can think of when hearing the word "holidays" :) We also had time to explore the forestes and went mushroom picking, which ended up with huge pot of mushroom soup that tasted like never before :)
But all good must come to an end. Even if we almost stayed there since the bus was full, managed to get back to Lodz. However, still have some holidays left, and sailing... every year new chapter of sailing is opened :)

London - Tampere - Blageovgrad

The end of June and beginnig of July - I can call it traveling time :)

First - London, where I had workshops for students on ocmmunication and team building. I really appreciate the opportunity to work with those people there. The group was just brilliant, funny, positive, and mature in the same time. Not everyday I meet groups like the one there. The work was a pleasure. Evenings - sighseeing, with Michal, who made me walk so much, that my feet wanted to be cuy off ;)

And then - Tampere, the rest :) Finally! After two looong years, two weeks of life that seems to slow down a bit. Meeting my good friends - Miia, Johanna (and their kids! The time flies... or leaving friends for two years brings lots of surprises :)) Emmi, Jan... Jaanika was not there this time, pity, but it won't be long when we meet :) And of course Christian, who was so nice that shared small room with me :) ok, believe it was a pleasure for him as well, or... he had no other option :P I had great time there, and it seems that Tampere is always a place that brings some changes in my life... or start the process of change... :) Walking at MY lake, admiring the sunsets, when the big red or golden ball of fire is cooling down in the water, songs of the wind, getting a little bit lazy while reading the books... Looking for articles at uni made me realise that I like to be a researcher :) Met Chrisitan's friends, we even got some price at pub quiz :) Lots of fun, lauging and great memories.

But then the holidas end and I need to go back to reality. This time it was painless, as the very next day after coming back from Tampere (will remember the pilot and never fly with him again!) I was going to Bulgaria, for a project meeting. I am a essential coordinator of EU project "MANTRA - MANagement ThRough Autonomy" and we met to almost finalise all the issues. Blageovgrad turned out to be a small but really nice place, with millions of lightning bugs!! It was so beautiful to come back home in the night and see all those small lights all around you... Will never ever forget that!
Meeting went fine, partners are really nice and intelligent people, with great sense of humour :) So we were working, laughing, and sightseeing. I believe that Bulgaria is a beautiful country, that has amazing potential, just so much not used in the very moment... The nature is incredible and breath-taking, but the cities... coming back to Warsaw felt like huge European capital of a rich country...

Simply trust!

simply trust,
simply trust!
cherry blossoms in bloom

simply trust!
cherry blossoms flitting
down

simply trust!
cherry blossoms fall
pit-a-pat

simply trust
mountain cuckoo!
summer's first bonito

simply trust! trust!
dewdrops spilling
down

Issa

Surprise

Did I tell you that surprises are something I like almost the most ;) Almost, because sometimes I am not sure at the beginning it is going to be nice or not. The last one definitely was one of the nicest and greatest surprises I got. When someone calls and says "hei, I can ... take a plane and be there with you tomorrow" :) and my evil heart says "more more more, do me like this more often" ;)
What else - did I mention to you about MC? Mr. Car. My Mr. Car :) Navy Blue. Stubborn. Has own style and own way. Always. Hopefully, always there :) Keep your fingers crossed for me, wild driver ;)

Seaside

So here we were - not many people, sun, send, blue sky, sometimes claudy, but only sometimes, and sea. When I come back in my thoughts to those moments, the images are so vivid, that still cannot write about it. Those smells, sounds, colours... One I can tell - I had a great time. Although Christian said it was "a trip to Hel", which was partly true, there are things I will never forget. Barefoot on the sand, warmth of the sun while reading a book, friend just next beside me, hand to hold, shoulder to put head on ... Definitely to repeat one day :)