Meeting friends somewhere on my way...

Sometimes I think how strange the life goes. You meet people when you thought you were not going to see them for a long time, and you cannot meet those you agreed. You discover new friends when you were not planning to, what you even didn't want to make new friends - but they are just there, waiting for you... It is always great to see faces you like, see the smile in someone's eyes because the unexpected meeting is such a nice surprise. I am happy I had those few moments here. I am happy I met people I wanted to meet, and happy I met those I was not expecting to meet, thinking that they are far away. I am sad I couldn't meet some people I wanted to see, but not this time. There are going to be other times my friends...
I will go to the lake soon. Sit one more time on Winnie the Pooh's bridge, as I called it... I will try to close the sunset under my eyelids. I will try to teach my heart to beat in the rhythm of the waves.
There is one song I have today in my heart, that I will sing silently on the bridge to my lake...


I heard there was a secret chord

that david played and it pleased the lord

but you don't really care for music, do you

well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth

the minor fall and the major lift

the baffled king composing hallelujah


hallelujah...


well your faith was strong but you needed proof

you saw her bathing on the roof

her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you

she tied you to her kitchen chair

she broke your throne and she cut your hair

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah


hallelujah...


baby I've been here before

I've seen this room and I've walked this floor

I used to live alone before I knew you

I've seen your flag on the marble arch

but love is not a victory march

it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah


hallelujah...


well there was a time when you let me know

what's really going on below

but now you never show that to me do you

but remember when I moved in you

and the holy dove was moving too

and every breath we drew was hallelujah


well, maybe there's a god above

but all i've ever learned from love

was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you

it's not a cry that you hear at night

it's not somebody who's seen the light

it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah


hallelujah...



There is something in it that is close to me today. Part of the lyrics...

Johanna's and Mikko's wedding

Tampere. Old Church in Keskustori... Johanna slowly walking down the isle to meet Mikko, words of promise they give to each other, smiles on their faces... It was a great wedding. Very natural, very beautiful, very like Johanna and Mikko. Wedding party in the middle of the lake, in Viikinsaari, music, dancing, poems. Nature and lake. Nice people, great time.
Johanna and Mikko, from the bottom of my heart I wish you happiness. I wish you hearing your thoughts, understanding dreams, being best friends, filling each other's life with joy and loving each other without end. Kaikkea hyvää!!!

Sun,wind,me and Lake

Train to Warszawa, meeting with my friends, almost missing the bus to Riga. Travelling for the whole night, meeting Sanna and Pawel in the morning. Time in Riga I will never forget, with Riga I have never known, and maybe I would never have a chance to get to know without those two people. Riga without tourists, Riga with people that live there every day... Places that are forgotten, places that are growing, places that are changing. When I come back some other day, I might be a witness of a transformation, but I hope that something will stay untouched...
Riga. A bus to the airport and a traffic jam. Almost missing a plane. A plane that in the very last moment I managed to catch. A plane that took me here. To Tampere. Back to Tampere.
There are few reasons why I'm here. Johanna's and Mikko's wedding, my friends, my lake, my...
The night was not peaceful, something was inside my soul that was not letting go... Today I woke up with the sun. I'll take that sun as a promise.
Miia, my friend, prepared a great breakfast. I wish I could live here to get that kind of breakfast every day ;) so let me prepare the dinner... But this will happen in a while. I cannot wait to spend time with my friends here.
But now I have a bit time for writting here, time for myself. Like yesterday when I left the plane and I stood at the airport. Time for me to see how it feels to be back. What I want. What I need. What I expected. And what I am afraid of.
Time for myself like today's afternoon. I took a bike and went to see My Lake. It was as always beautiful. As always waiting for me with arms wide open. But a bit angry today... With me? Why? Or is it a metaphor?
The wind was strong, and waves were so powerful... They hit the shore with such an impact.Crushed...But... even with that power and strenght, even crazy and in a rush, waves found, created, some peaceful rythem in this... The sound was amazing, it was like the beat of the heart. Breathe-in, breathe-out. Breathe...Bravely, strongly... Breathing new life into.

Aapo in Lodz

Surprise surprise. The middle of extremely hot Polish summer and guess who came - Aapo. Few days ago I got an email with the info that he would come, and this was a very nice surprise, and a change from the thesis... Some time with old friends :) Aapo stayed in Chris's place, we had few pints of beer together, visited few places, saw few factories, ate 'chlodnik' and it was a very nice time. Aapo, have a great trip!!!

Mazury...

The beginning of holidays... Me, lake, water, wind, and sailing jacht... I couldn't have imagined something more beautiful... maybe some small small details... but it was just perfect time, 10 days of active holidays in the way I love and I was already missing so badly!!!
Me, Ania and Michał, my very close friends, and in the end also Agata, we were trying to catch the wind and sail where our eyes took us...
When I started to sail years ago, I never thought it could give me so much... When you hear the song of the jacht when the wind is strong, then your soul is singing the same melody... The wind blows away our fears... brings some peace... gives you space to think over whatever you have on your mind... Water helps to clear the thoughts... When you are a bit lost, or lose the ground, listen to the wind, and listen to the waves. That's what I do...
And Polish lakes? Amazing :) But I wrote about it before... Sun rises and sunsets... summer sun that makes your skin golden-brown... Summer nights, warm and full of stars... stars marking your way home, stars reminding you of your dreams... (just those damn mosquitos!! and damn motor boats!!!! :)) ANYWAY, IT WAS GREAT...
Now I am full of energy, full of life :) I can sing, I can jump, I can enjoy being a bit silly now :) Pity it is over, but I am happy I was there, in this moment, with those people :) I had funny, relaxing ten days :) ok, my ass was a bit too heavy to climb the boat sometimes ;) or I was too clumsy ;) And I have millions of bruises, as always :) but at least I feel I am alive!!! :D
Boys and Girls... I wish you great summer!!! :)

My Country

Two weeks ago, when I got the results from my last exams, I took a train to the land of lakes in Poland... Finally a bit of holidays :)
On my way there, while being there, and on the way back, I have discovered something important. Or I should say that I refreshed my memory... I realised how beautiful Poland is. How much I like this country and how Polish I am. This is a place I belong to. Place that has stolen a bit part of my heart. Wherever I am going to be, I am Polish. I have Polish soul, Polish heart, and I love this country. My heart was growing with those fields of gold, with this blue sky and with the sun. With the red and blue fowers hidden in the fields of rye... With the dark clouds and rainbow on the other side. With the colors of flowers. With smells of summer. With small lakes hidden in the meadows and forests. With every single tree, so green, that I cannot find the way to describe that shades of green. With big lakes, where wind was strong and space was enchanting.
This is my country. I was thinking - how could I ever forget that it is such a beautiful place... Place, that life might not be so easy, but in the same time place on Earth I keep on coming back, more and more amazed. I find other places interesting and beautiful. But whatever I might write, although I am not emphasizing that - Poland is beautiful. Poland is lovely and charming. Poland has a big place inside my heart... This is where I come from and this is a place I will always call HOME...